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In the Middle of it All

It hits me every time.

When I walk into the kitchen and see her scraping the peanut butter container clean.

She cannot see any food go to waste.

Even the peanut butter film on the inside of the jar I tried to scrape clean.

Even the half-eaten toddler snacks are added to her plate.
It’s seen in his asking.

That pot of jet black rice fuming on the back porch.

A mistake waiting to be cool enough for the trash.

“Don’t throw it out. I’ll eat it.”

And he did.

I don’t even know how he got it down.
Food security looks different in different places.

For some it’s the “no waste” moto.

And then for some it’s digging in the trash.
It affects us too, but in different ways.

It looks like sacking the stale bread in a plastic bag to deshard it in the trash

Because we know that someone will find it and eat it.

And I just can’t bear the thought of it being mixed with coffee grounds.

Even the most lowly is a delight to Our Father.
It looks like intentionally having leftovers to share.

And having a bag of coins in our car for the next beggar to knock at the window

with a blind grandparent holding onto their shoulder.

Some beggars are adults,

but many are children trying to provide for a sick or lame grandparent.
Food security.


Such heavy weights all around us.

So much to pray for.

So much to honor Jesus in.

… So much to wrestle with.
And yet I am also so thankful for the privilege

Of wrestling with how and when to help.

Because in our heads and in our lives

It’s all His anyway.
Lord, please help us to live Luke 12:48 well

in the middle of it all.


Have you ever thought that the all-sufficient Savior has promised those who walk in blind faith more than our minds can ever comprehend? That the only True Savior renews our minds, even when we feel most useless toward His Kingdom work? The Lord of all dares to touch our hearts, even as we stumble to find obedience. Oh how this soul wishes we Christians would embrace His Truth! And that the world would be different because of obedient hearts. Lord, change me. Lord, change us. All for Your glory. ---------- I am a Jesus-follower, a Homemaker, a Wife of the best man EVER, a Mom of 4 wonderful girls, a missionary in Africa, a Friend, an Encourager, a Seeker of integrity who is unsatisfied with a mediocre walk in Christ, and Blessed beyond any words that I could ever express. Thanks for being interested in my little slice of the world.

2 thoughts on “In the Middle of it All

    1. I love you. Thanks for sharing my same heart for those here. I love that even though an ocean separates us, we’re still on this beautiful God journey together. =)

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